My fabulous sister shared this link with me. A Story of Beauty & Finding Yourself. She knew I would relate.
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” Anais Nin
I've been having a lot of bad days lately. Partially caused by dealing with kids and their head lice (a story for another day, or maybe not. I haven't decided.) But mostly because I'm confused at what step to take next. I'm really proud of the steps I've taken so far. They have taken me from a place where I was dyeing and brought me back to life. Now there is a tug of war with my spirit as the rope. On one side I need to love and accept myself just as I am, and on the other, I need to grow and progress and be headed somewhere. It can all be very depressing at times.
How do I bring these two sides that are seemingly opposites around so that they can coexist and strengthen each other?
I don't have the answer, but I like reading about people who have found their own answers.
I need to remember that even if I don't know where I want my journey to lead, it is important to keep taking steps. And while I am walking, I might look up a side road. It will probably be bumpy and steep, and it will be beautiful. Then I will know that I want to climb that hill and I will turn my course that way. Until then, I just need to pick a direction and start walking.